[He's broken and in pain and the moment he thinks of Skye he wants to scream. He wants to grab at the carpet, rip open his wounds and bleed out right there. Finish the job he tried three goddamn times in three goddamn ways. Take out everyone except yourself Ward. Good job Ward. Good job Grant ward. I'm Agent Grant Ward and...and...
All I want to do is die.
There's no expression on his face however and her touch lingers. It tells him two things. If she were SHIELD she would not be so understanding. If she were SHIELD in any capacity she would be cold, efficient, betrayed. One man wounding an entire organization. Martyr on the damn cross thank you very much. Save his life and lock him back up.
If she were HYDRA he'd be dead.
His mouth trembles.]
No.
[He inhales.] I don't think so. I'm trying to keep talking so that I can stop focusing on the pain.
So no. Not - [This is the most he's ever talked to anyone in it feels like...years? it had to be years.] Not yet. Although I'm sure you might find a reason. [his smile is thin.] eventually.
[He moves a hand for her - an involuntary reflex. The simple truth of it is, he went through hell and decided he didn't want to die and those brief...fleeting moments of thinking about just how badly he'd screwed up weren't enough to drag him back to it.
He can't say save me.
He can try and convey it.
But a kicked animal can't ask for someone to save it without a lot of help.]
TW: mention of suicide.
All I want to do is die.
There's no expression on his face however and her touch lingers. It tells him two things. If she were SHIELD she would not be so understanding. If she were SHIELD in any capacity she would be cold, efficient, betrayed. One man wounding an entire organization. Martyr on the damn cross thank you very much. Save his life and lock him back up.
If she were HYDRA he'd be dead.
His mouth trembles.]
No.
[He inhales.] I don't think so. I'm trying to keep talking so that I can stop focusing on the pain.
So no. Not - [This is the most he's ever talked to anyone in it feels like...years? it had to be years.] Not yet. Although I'm sure you might find a reason. [his smile is thin.] eventually.
[He moves a hand for her - an involuntary reflex. The simple truth of it is, he went through hell and decided he didn't want to die and those brief...fleeting moments of thinking about just how badly he'd screwed up weren't enough to drag him back to it.
He can't say save me.
He can try and convey it.
But a kicked animal can't ask for someone to save it without a lot of help.]